True Real Life Stories

Have you A Story to Tell

You may have a personal tragedy of your own that may benefit from the telling. Writing it down can often help the person involved to move on with their life.

The stories in this section are from people I know. Both friends, and colleagues or have come to know in my working life whom I hold in high regard. Some have had/still have life changing mental health problems, while others have had life changing tragedies.

We all have our different ways of either putting ourselves down, or patting ourselves on the back. If you are continually putting yourself down you will become isolated. In my mind this is the very foundation depression is built upon. Your very thoughts can have a profound effect on how you feel.

Jailer Of Your Thoughts

Have you ever felt you were all alone with no-one to turn too? The problem you seem to be having just does not happen to anyone else. Do you find yourself thinking, “If this is true, it has happened to me because I am a bad person.” If so it would appear you not only find yourself becoming the jailer of your thoughts, you have also become the judge and jury.

Real Life Experiences

This section of the website you will find it does happen to other individuals and suffering a mental health problem or a life changing tragedy does not come from being a bad person, being lazy, having a good imagination, and not being a good actor as some doctors seem to think, when they tell you to pull yourself together.

Mental health illness is not much different to having a broken leg or, some other physical ailment. The difference is you can not see a mental health problem. It is still an illness and needs treatment accordingly.

Why not stay a while and read one or two of our true real life stories penned by various individuals. While some have problems with mental health, others have had serious life changing tragedies. Why rush away, take some-time out for yourself, read how these particular people felt at a precise moment in time.

Moth in a Dayroom (real life story)

When my marriage broke up, it wasn’t the only thing that went to pieces. I had been married for twenty four years, known her for twenty seven, and it was like looking in a mirror and seeing someone else… Everything was either different, or gone… I mean everything was gone… even me.

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After charging around, bumping into things for a while, I finally found myself on a psychiatric ward, without really remembering how I’d got there, if I’d been sent, if I had asked,… or what. People are terrified of those places, what with the loonies and all, but they’re not so bad. You eat if you can eat, you sleep if you can sleep. You take your medication, you do a jigsaw puzzle, if you can concentrate long enough. The pain does not go away, but it is not compounded by everyday stuff, the crap you can’t handle. That’s handled for you, or you just plain forget it. You’re left alone mostly. Some of the inmates resent this, and you can hear them asking where’s the help for me, me, me? But I was satisfied to be there out of the game for a while,.. safe…

The first few days were nothing, just getting used to being there. There wasn’t much to do, but then there wasn’t much I wanted to do… It was safe. After a while I seemed to suddenly return from wherever it was I’d been, and I started to take notice.

I noticed a short solid-looking girl with reddish hair, and a trellis of scars on her forearms, I noticed a dark, thin women whose fingers writhed like mating worms. I noticed a tall spiky-haired man with glasses, who seemed to laugh a lot, and went for cigarettes and papers, every morning. Later I would know them as Joanne, Mary, and Paul. I noticed a whip-thin blonde, who walked silently, and moved as though she were scared her head would fall off. She was upright, and moved with a delicacy and a grace that may have been inborn, or may have been due to her medication.

She looked sad, and beautiful to me. She did not do much or say much either. She had a look of Chris Everet, blue eyes, and dyed blonde hair. Her eyes were hard to look whose name was Chris. Lee was on “close”, accompanied, supervised, overseen, even when she was asleep. I’d learned that Lee was a self-harmer.

There’s a lot of tittle-tattle in those wards, not much else to do, I was told that Lee’s high neckline and long sleeves hid appalling scars. Maybe they did I never saw them. She spoke to me once, for about twenty minutes I can’t remember what we talked about, but I do remember one thing she said,… I was nice.

Every morning Lee would walk into the day room, carrying a cup of tea, fold herself into a bony zed in a armchair and begin to smoke. She smoked heavily nearly all of us did, even the staff. When I went in I was a non-smoker of four years standing. When I came out after a month I was on sixty a day.

The last time I saw Lee was at visiting time. I never had visitors. It’s to complicated to explain why, I just didn’t. Or something, and sitting on the husband’s knee, their kid, a pink, fat little girl in her best party frock, come to see her Mam. Nice?… Family support?… Not really.

Hubby ranted, Lee’s Mam wheedled, auntie sat with a mouth puckered with disapproval. Dad just sat and looked perplexed, and so it went, on and on the ranting the wheedling, the demands, the questions. Why didn’t she pull herself together?… What did she have to be depressed about?… She had a good man… He was a good worker… Never wanted for nowt. Everything to live for. Did she realise what the Lad was going through, working and bringing up the bairn? Aye, and what was it doing to the poor bairn? She’s only a kiddie. Lee sat behind a table, smoked, drank her tea, didn’t speak.

The little girl in her party dress, sensing the heat of the words started to whine. Lee seemed to get slower, more delicate, more graceful, as they tortured her. As they pulled off her butterfly wings, stuck pins in her eyes, and ripped off her blue denim legs, I watched. Her eyes seemed to be getting bigger, brighter, defined by her unshed tears.

Chris her nurse sitting by her elbow, reached out. She was to late. The table hit Mam across the shins, Lee’s cup hit hubby on the shoulder. Lee’s voice usually soft, was hard and rich, rasping from too many cigarettes, and too much rage… “Do you think I want this? Think I’m enjoying it? Do you think I want to be here? Do you? You stupid pack of b*stards! Do you?” Uproar, tears,

Author: Bruce Graeme McBeth

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